“You’re tough.”
I sure as hell didn’t feel it.
My body was drained of all its energy. My legs felt like pieces of lead. My stomach was still unsettled, twisting and turning inside itself. I wasn’t sure when the need to use the bathroom would come again.
“You’re strong.”
The sun was beating down, waves of heat drowning me in sweat. The peak of the mountain seemed so far away. The trail winded across, up and down, steep and covered in rocks. I had no faith in myself. How would I make it? And to think, that fence in the far distance only marked our break for lunch.
“You’re stubborn.”
The last thing I expected, the last thing I wanted, was to get sick when I went on my J-term trip to Nepal. It wasn’t any normal sickness. By a chance of bad luck in our choice of water bottles, one of the other girls and I were chosen as perfect hosts for a parasite: giardia.
It was the most miserable few days of our lives. Feeling weak, with an uneasy stomach and a sensitive sense of smell that would only allow us to nibble at rice, yet we had to continue our trek in the Himalayas. No rest for the wicked. Not to mention that the occasional desire to throw up and the unannounced moments where diarrhea would spring upon us.
But through the agony of it all, I learned something important about myself that my professor and our guide continued to tell me through our struggles. It was moments like this, moments when we were in dire need of our inner strength, that it comes out. My inner strength proved to me just how stubborn I was. Through the suffering of it all, I struggled up the mountains, trekking the whole seven hours we had to do that day that it was the worst. Now when I find myself in some awful situation, I realize, I can push through because nothing could compare to that. I’ve done it once. I can do it again.